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[31 Oct 2004|12:23am] |
yea i felt like a rockstar today before maegin came over and yea i took pics *thumbs up*....yes maegin came over and that was so great i love her so much
( i wanna be a rock star )
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[30 Oct 2004|01:29pm] |
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this update is for one person only and its not maegin. im sorry arielle for not calling you. i did try to find you a ride after my mom wouldnt take me but i couldnt. so im sorry. you didn miss much but still you there would have been a big support boost. i hope you forgive me.
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[28 Oct 2004|04:38pm] |
i forgot to update about christopher knorrs party so here it is. it was fun....and i got to see the one that means so much to me *sigh* i love her so much. but here are pics of knorrs present from us
( Itsa Me Mario )
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[07 Oct 2004|11:37pm] |
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im a dick no reasoning around it. i may not be a dick everyday but i get my time in with being one. today i messed up so many things. im so scared. im so fucking scared. im gonna die tonight i know it not physically i know im going to do in my sleep die inside. im so scared that im at the point of crying. i dont want it to end up bad. i really dont. im such a loser. i dont update for letting people know about my life. i seem to only use this to say things and look for sympathy. i need to be a better person and stop living off other peoples sympathy.
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[04 Oct 2004|06:48am] |
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god i didnt sleep thats not good i need to see a doctor on my breathing troubles or something because this is getting out of hand if it interfers with sleep
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[22 Sep 2004|09:52pm] |
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well today the band took band pics and those will soon be up and we finished our first original with words. so yay. robert said we were good and he would get us a show at the brewery if we needed one. once we are ready ill say ah men to that
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| aaaaaahhhhh glasses |
[16 Sep 2004|02:57pm] |
wow today i got glasses. i never thought i would need them. well i really dont i just need them to see the board at school and for driving. its so weird i actually like them i dont know about you guys but meh. Maegin left today for Virgina for 3 days. im going to miss her so much. i might not have to go to my dads this weekend end cus he has a job. but im not sure oh well. hhhhmmm yes the band is going very well. 2 shows in october one on the 15th with robert's band and one on the 29th at a party it will be awesome
( glasses glasses glasses )
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[13 Sep 2004|05:54pm] |
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ah this week(s) have been good i saw my love alot and im so happy. ah i love that girl so much :). ah its so silly that i get jealous of random guys with her *sigh*. yes but still shes so great yay. but yes the band is coming along very well. we have shows and etc and we have so many song ideas its ggggrrreeeaaatttt. yea this update is small cus i dont like updating. oh and im grounded but people can come over here which is funny. so stop on by and help me through grounding *wink* *wink*
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[06 Sep 2004|10:17am] |
hhhmm maybe im lucky and might not have to go to the boat today cus my dad is still in bed score :D. i hope i get to see the one i adore most today if i dont i know ill just die.
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| hey sweetheart |
[05 Sep 2004|09:22am] |
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aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh i dont ever update anymore all because im lazy and i forgot what has happened over these days. well friday i skipped school with Maegin and went to her house. fun stuff until her dad came home. he just went and fixed the roof then sat with us. it was like *phew*. Maegin's dad is hilarious. hes so random and make random noises. after skipping the day with Maegin i went back to school with her to find a ride home. Pope took me home and then later that night i went back to Maegin's to go to Jesse's house where they got drunk expect Maegin and i. i was so wonderful to look into her eyes and feel that great feeling when you feel like you have found what you have been looking for. (its time to be cheesey) and its weird cus what i have been looking for was hidden in plain view ;) ;) ;). that night was so special to me :) until i had to leave. next day band practice. that was cool my dad was impressed with us and Maegin and her friends came (Liz and Arielle) i think they could they might have enjoyed it but Stephen threw out his voice after screaming "Die Young and Save Yourself" on the end of Sic Transit Gloria. after band practice my dad took Liz, Arielle, Maegin, and i to adventure landing. we didnt do anything but my brother and my dad went go karting. well my dad did make us play golf. Maegin refused to play but oh well. yea i got 2 hole in ones suck my dick beeeoottcchhes. haha yea im such a loser. after AL we went to Cici's and wow i feel bad cus my dad paid for everything and hes so poor :(. my dad was really nice about everything until we went to a park so he could play frisbee golf and yea he got so pissed that he left everything behind and yea then i lost something and i spent our whole time there looking for it. after my dad getting fed up he took Maegin and her crew back home. later that night i called Maegin and but Liz and Arielle were talkin to someone on the other ends they said hold up lemme say bye then ill get you to Maegin so i said nevermind dont bother ill just go to sleep. and then Maegin called me back crying because of hard to explain reasons. i felt so worried because i love her so much and i dont care what all you other people say about your to young why dont you go find someone and spend 3 years side by side and knowing that the two of you like each other but already have a relationship so you get hurt because you know what you feel and they know what they feel but theres just someone standing in the way that they lush after. ok done with rant that probably made no sense cus i am all like grr to anyone who says i dont know what i feel. so after Maegin calmed down we talked about our child hoods and stuff. its so easy to talk to her about anything and everything. like yes the two of us are so random but that just makes everything more interesting and wondeful. we talked until her phone died then i sent to sleep and here i am now. hopefully ill spend my whole monday with the one i care most about :)
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[29 Aug 2004|11:51am] |
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well well well last night was...how do i put it....gangster?. first off Andrew (my ghetto friend) came over and was like you should get rid of those collared shirts and those skater shirts and like whatever i wear. i laughed. well that whole night we went on a walk to go jump this kid David who has been messing with his girl. He gave me a switch-blade just incase things got rough heh heh. we walked like forever and found Maegin (YAY!) and Arielle. and we walked so more. and more and more and more. we finally got the place and found out the dude had like 3 friends who were big i was like aw man. so Andrew got out his brass knuckles and we waited for them to show. they didnt so thats ok. i dont think i woulda used the knife anyways since im to damn nice. hhmm so basically the best part of that day was Maegin.
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[25 Aug 2004|09:10pm] |
so ive been doing some thinking about what i should do with myself i can either
A. Dye my hair black with the 30 day stuff just incase is sucks
B. Pierce my lip
C. Dye my hair black and pierce my lip
and yea i would be doing adam lazzara style hair ;) yea i dunno people tell me what would be good or bad
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[20 Aug 2004|06:39am] |
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why am i such a bad person. i always seem like the one whos nice and not some bitch...i hate myself i ruined to peoples days and they both probably hate me now...i dont wanna go to school now i might just stay home...i think i need to become antisocial for the good of everyones sake or something. the other day my mom said i could go to a private school if i wanted to because my brother is now in one...i might just do that i think a new start would be nice i suppose but still i wont be able to change the fact i am a horrilbe peron
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| shine on diamond eyes |
[19 Aug 2004|09:29pm] |
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wow i havent updated in sssooo long. well what happened over this long mass of time is i went to Matt's to see Knorr, Alex, and David. then i walked up to meet Chelsea, Melissa, Melinda, and Leah the next day after Matt's. then like in the rain my phone died and i had to get a new free one cus of WARRINTY :D!!!!!!. but now i have no one in my phonebook. err after school i went to Anna's house one day. we had fun. she was so happy haha! it was great. i wanted to steal her lip ring cus yea i like it. i want my lip pierced. i just need to get the balls to do it and get away with it. hhhmmm Anna is so great :D. hhhhmmmm tomorrow i have to go to a boat and be isolated gggrr. i dont want to i hate that boat with a passion it should burn BURN!!!. ok i guess this is good enough for a 5 day update
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[13 Aug 2004|11:06pm] |
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wow its been awhile since i updated....well the first day of school was alright. i sit alone in first, second, and third. but fourth i sit with Tori, Brian, and Edgar. the second day i talked to this kid in my second period which is Algebra 2 and he plays in a band and he gave me their demo. they are pretty good. yea whatever i dont feel like talkin about the other days. today i went to Tyler's friend Wade's house with Sara and Anna. i got to meet Felicia, Megan(Moose), Rob, Wade, and Becca. i had some fun there and etc. oh yea i tried on girls pants and wow i have a big ass. but this update is more of a *sigh* i feel weird thing. i think Anna is weird...one minute shes all cuddly and nice then the next i get denied of hugs and shes mean...i wonder why she likes me or if she does at all. but then theres then why is she with me. her being mean isnt bad at all because she really isnt that mean at all. its just the being shunned thing. like today i would hug her but she wont hug back which is bleh and i get denied of stuff like that. maybe im just a bad boyfriend or something i dunno...well i just had to get that off my chest and i dont want sympathy from people. i dont want "aww im sry chris blah blah" cus that wont help any
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[09 Aug 2004|07:14pm] |
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so i havent updated in awhile i think but yea all i can remember is seeing The Notebook and it was really good you should go out and see it because its just that good ;). i saw it with Samantha, Matt, and Anna. it was good to be able to see Anna before school starts :).
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[08 Aug 2004|05:22pm] |
RULES:
1. Put your birth month in an entry.
2. Bracket anything that doesn't apply to you
3. Bold the ones that best apply to you.
4. Put all twelve months under a livejournal cut.
JANUARY:
[Stubborn and hard-hearted].
Ambitious and serious.
Loves to teach and be taught.
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses.
Likes to criticize.
[Hardworking and productive].
[Smart, neat and organized].
Sensitive and has deep thoughts.
Knows how to make others happy.
Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Rather reserved.
[Highly attentive].
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds.
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children.
Loyal.
Has great social abilities yet easily jealous.
Very stubborn and money cautious.
( blah )
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| i'm on fire and now i think ready to bust a move |
[06 Aug 2004|10:08pm] |
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ok well i woke up at Matt's for orientation...and wow that was boring. i got to see an ex girlfriend she was stopped me to say hey. i wasnt sure if i wanted to say hey back but i did. i got to see Brad too wow. hes doing acid now. i wished hed stop he has such a great life. hes got my ex, hes got good friends, hes in freakin Ashwin. they are gonna get big. i told him to stop or to try he said it was hard because when he gets sad he craves it. oh well. well we went to Kirstin's then back to Sanderson orientation. next was the mall. but before Matt's mom drove off without us and we had to run after her. then after the mall we went to the movies. we saw The Village. its a good movie i was very shocked to see how it turned out. its not what you think thats all i have to say but go see it. and then after movies was bed time at Matt's then i woke up got online went home and yea thats been it. tomorrow i gotta go to the water park i dont wanna but i gotta "/. well maybe ill have a good time
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